Over My Head

This last weekend I had the opportunity to go to Time Out for Women. Let me tell you, it was absolutely amazing. I will try to write a post entirely dedicated to that later, but for now I want to focus on one specific song that really stood out to me.

Jericho Road has always been one of my favorite groups. Imagine my face when I learned that they would be providing the musical entertainment for the very conference I would be attending *commence laughing*

I was so star-struck the whole time. I couldn't believe I was in the very same room as them. One song they sang was called Over My Head.

I'm in over my head
Right where I wanna be
I'm so lost within your love 
The love that always covers me
So high, so deep, so wide
A strong and cleansing tide
My soul has found a place to rest
I'm in over my head

When they sang the words I'm in over my head at the beginning of the chorus I immediately felt as though the song would apply to me. I have been feeling so overwhelmed trying to balance work and school that I truly felt like I was drowning.

The next line threw me off. Right where I wanna be? No sir, I would much rather feel like I was in complete control of my life instead of like I'm losing control.

I'm so lost within your love, the love that covers me. Then I began to understand.

Since that moment I have remembered to thank God for all I have. I may be crazy insanely stressed out right now, but I have a job. Something millions of people don't. I have the opportunity to go to school and extend my education. Something millions and millions of people don't. I may not know where I'm going to live next semester, but I know that I will have somewhere to lay my head at night. So many people don't have that assurance.

So it's true, I'm in over my head, but I'm right where I wanna be. I'm so lost within His love...it's the love that covers me. My soul has found a place to rest.

I love the gospel.

What else could go wrong? Right?

This whole last week has been a headache for me.

Let me just start with explaining the events of my Organic Chemistry lab to you.
We showed up half an hour early because our professor told us it would take a long time to do the experiment...which it did. But it wasn't because of how long the reaction took.

Dr. Holman told us to skip a step and add a reagent directly to the round bottom flask instead of putting it and the alkyl halide in a separate flask. My lab partner and I made a mistake and assumed that meant we could put the alkyl halide into the round bottom flask as well. We added both and I stuck the cork down tight because the mixture was super volatile and I didn't want to lose any. I remembered the lab instructions said to mix it a little...so I started swirling it...then pandemonium erupted. Literally.


The reaction happened immediately, which is why we were supposed to add the alkyl halide when we were back at the bench. A lot of gas was being produced, so I had a momentary thought run through my mind This thing is going to explode! I tried to get the cork out, but I had stuck it down too tightly. I hurried back to my bench and got the cork out...which resulted in a geyser of Magnesium shards and iodine and the other liquidy reagents. I caught the brunt of it and the rest pretty much fell onto my binder or the bench top. My binder kinda makes it look like I killed someone.

I wish I could say that's all that went wrong with that experiment...but it's not. 

We had to start over again, which didn't take too long. Everything was going pretty well until we had to put the round bottom in a hot water bath that was between 40-50 degrees celsius. Right as I turned the hot plate on Dr. Holman called all of us over to see someone else's reaction and what it should look like. We were over there for around five minutes or so I guess. When I came back, the water was boiling. BOILING! Crap, so I took it out of the water and prayed everything would work okay even if it was way too hot. Then I noticed the next thing...the reflux apparatus (double layed glass tube that cold water flows through) had not been turned on the whole time...so pretty much our product could have boiled and evaporated right out of the flask for all we knew...

Then we had to put a flask with water in it into an ice water bath. We did that and started answering questions in our lab report. Dr. Holman came over to talk to us and I swear, nothing went wrong until he looked at our flask. It exploded. I'm not kidding. The stinking thing shattered the second he laid eyes on it. 

A kid in our lab thought it was super funny that his reaction was working and ours was going wrong and just about every turn. We thought it was funny when we still got product and he didn't. Suckaaa!

Oh yeah, and that night my car decided to give me a heart attack by almost dying while I was driving to my other lab. Then my phone decided to give my parents a heart attack when I called to tell them about it by losing service and then dying. 

And that was just Tuesday! Oi

The rest of the week was just tiring with working 30 hours a week and trying to study for the A&P test on Wednesday (I may have skipped like 3 lectures because I can't understand the student teacher who was teaching us chapters 20 and 21...I learned my lesson. No more skipping class). 

Anyway, the roommates and I have decided that every night Monday through Thursday we are going to the library when I get off work or out of lab and we are going to do homework and study. We don't study well at home and I'm afraid it's going to start showing on tests. This means that pretty much I will never be home. I will be there from 10 or so at night to 7:30 in the morning when I go to class or work depending on the day. 

I can't wait until summer haha. I swear, I'm not complaining. I love my life and I wouldn't have it any other way, but it's taking some time to get used to this schedule.